…an apology long overdue
Love Alone by Call Caedmon playing
Just so you know, I did cry too.
You might think I’m the biggest jerk there could ever be. Frankly, I could easily agree. At one point, you might have told yourself I’m the dumbest mistake you’ve ever made in your entire life. I would give you that.
But please never think that when I left, I only thought of myself, or that I relished in the thought of breaking someone’s heart.
Leaving you wasn’t easy. It wasn’t at all convenient for me to have turned back, walked away and moved on with my life because it wasn’t how easy things happened.
You don’t know how it ate up one me thinking of the best words to say goodbye - the best in the bad - because there was never a good way to say it. You don’t know how weakening it was to have looked you in the eye and told you those words. You don’t know how much I battled it out with myself to finally decide to let go of everything I had with you, because I know you know you did mean everything to me.
I’m not claiming it was harder for me. I’m not saying you can’t blame me, or that I did nothing wrong.
Because honestly until now I am still sorry. Still guilt-stricken for not having kept my promise.
I know I could only imagine the hell you’ve been through because of me and my stupidity…
But just so you know, I did cry too.
