…back to you

(Say It Right, by Nelly Furtado feat. Erick Right, playing)

hey, stranger.

nice to see you again, it’s been a while.

you seem a little bit under the weather, are you doing fine?

i know i haven’t been able to check on you recently…

and i apologize…

i’ve been busy meeting people…

for you.

i hope you understand.

it’s just that i’ve been painstakingly wanting to see you with someone, so that you won’t be as lonely as much as you’ve always been.

i couldn’t help it.

you can’t blame me for being so gravely concerned with you. everytime i see you, it troubles me to have to see it in your eyes, that emptiness that creeps up on me.

it’s a secret only you and i know, that the moment you wake up - even before you open your eyes - you always reach to your side, finding out if there’s anyone there, and everytime you realize that there’s still half of the bed unfilled, you’d close your eyes, keep that dreaded wetness from building up, and with a heavy sigh let out that hurt.

i should know. i have to see it and feel it and deal with it… everytime.

so, can you blame me?

for being out too often?

if i have to take the guilt, i’ll take it for failing to find someone who deserves you; i won’t be guilty for trying.

but if anything, i pay a hefty price for my sins, you know. i do get punished for every moment i miss spending with you.

it’s me who gets to deal with the debilitation of exerting too much effort, only to find out they were all in vain. unrequited, if not dismal and desperate.

It’s my emotions that dissipate, from being lost to eventually becoming untraced.

…and sleeping around doesn’t help, for the record.

…not when you’ve already had you fill of it. then it becomes tasteless. distasteful.

if only they knew.

if only they know you like i do.

but i hope it’s never too late… good thing i found my way back home. good thing you called me back to you, and not let me lose myself.

can i make it up to you?

can we begin anew?

hey, stranger. now, i promise…

…to protect you, and guard you, and save you… from anyone who doesn’t see what you’re worth… from anyone who falls short of what you deserve… from anyone who won’t be able to best me in loving you…

…yes, i would now love you with all i’ve got. all i’ve got and all i am… so that you don’t have to settle for anything… anyone… less.

i promise…

—SELF

"[Timbaland:]
(Break it, break it down)
(Hey)
(You don’t mean nothing at all to me)
(Hey, hey)
(Break it, break it down)
[Nelly:]
In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don’t
You either stand
Or you fall
When your will
Is broken
When it slips
From your hand
When there’s no
Time for joking
There’s a hole
In my plan
[Erick Right:]
Got me twisted all inside
Don’t know what’s on your Mind
When you telling me to say it right
But yet again you call me your Mr. right
Wanna know who’s playin games
Confusion who to blame
When you tell what I’m sayings wrong
But yet you come around say I got you sprung
You got me thinking ish
When you act like your slick
I gotta end this quick
But some how I can’t quit
How does something so wrong
Feel so right
I gots to go
Before I lose control
[Nelly:] Oh, you don’t mean nothing at all to me
[Erick:] (That’s how you make it sound, but yet I’m still around)
[Nelly:] No, you don’t mean nothing at all to me
[Erick:] (Not true, I know you mean it)
[Nelly:] Oh, you got what it takes to set me free
[Erick:] (Why don’t I feel the same, you made me feel this way)
[Nelly:] Oh you could mean everything to me
[Erick:] (I could, but you don’t seem to show it)
I can’t say (Say)
That I’m not (Not)
Lost (Lost)
And at fault (Fault)
I can’t say (Say)
That I don’t (Don’t)
Love the light (Light)
And the dark
I can’t say
That I don’t (Don’t)
Know that I (Am)
Am alive
And I love
What I feel (Feel)
I could show (Show you)
You tonite, you tonite
[Nelly:] Oh, you don’t mean nothing at all to me
[Erick:] (That’s how you make it sound, but yet I’m still around)
[Nelly:] No, you don’t mean nothing at all to me
[Erick:] (Not true, I know you mean it)
[Nelly:] Oh, you got what it takes to set me free
[Erick:] (Why don’t I feel the same, you made me feel this way)
[Nelly:] Oh you could mean everything to me
[Erick:] (I could, but you don’t seem to show it)
[Erick:]
Baby I wanna see if you want (Want me)
Need to know what you can do for me
[Nelly:]
From my body (From my body)
I could show you (I could show you)
A place (A place)
God knows (That only God knows)
You should know
Space is holy (Ahh)
Do you really
Wanna go?
[Erick:]
That’s how you make it sound, but yet I’m still around
Not true, I know you mean it
Why Don’t I feel the same, you made me feel thïs way
I could, but you don’t seem to show ït"